urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crykidcry crykidcry crykidcry 2007-06-02T08:20:00Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crykidcry:799 2007-06-02T08:20:00Z 2007-06-02T08:20:00Z This means war- It's Alive! Remember when you were young?<br />and you thought you really knew yourself?<br />well, i dunno if this has happened to any of you yet but <br />there comes a time were....everything you ever thought you knew about yourself and others<br />is wrong....<br />OR<br />youre told its wrong by all the closest people to you...<br />so you get reaaaalllllyyy fucking confused and take about 15000000 steps back to try and make sense of it all<br />but it just gets more confusing. you wanna believe the ones you love, but at the same time you gotta do it for you. <br /><br />Its a re-birth. <br />You shut down the systems <br />and re boot them with different software<br />completely<br />Completely reinventing everything youve ever known.<br />my fuck ups in all of your eyes could quite possibly be my biggest achievement thus far in my life.<br />its weird the way people fuckin work<br /><br />ill get it<br />youll get it<br />youll get that im getting it and ill get your getting that i get it<br />ya know, that sorta thing.....<br /><br /><br />PS- man, what a weird feeling this shits turned into<br />not what i expected<br />a hand full of emotion<br />packed tightly in a balled up first<br />leaking through white knuckles <br />and words, sinking behind my grinding teeth, back down my throat<br />yikes!<br />this sounds more serious than it is.<br />its actually fun, and exhilarating<br />i just hope im not being a fuckin fool cause i tend to do that shit from time to time<br />maybe i feel vulnerable so i see myself as that and i feel everyone else around me does as well<br />ive said to much, fuck yall..god dammit<br /><br />i think im just being honest, which is what youre sappose to do right?<br />yah, honesty, fuck yah...thats the way to go urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crykidcry:653 2007-06-01T02:23:41Z 2007-06-01T02:23:41Z The Day The Whole World Went Away- NIN This is one of thoose new chapters they all talk about. <br />I really feel it.<br />Its new, its horrifying, but theres this overwhelming comfort of somesort coming from somewhere.....<br />Im not mistaken it for anything other than confidence ladies & gents...<br />Common, Im not that manufactured.<br /><br />Im guessing I will get the hang of this "being alone" thing soon.<br />ya know? "emotionally stable"...hahaha fuckin' A right!<br />Sooner than Later..<br />The sooner the better<br />It better be soon..<br />But i guess its the price you pay<br />and i guess i just can not wait.....